"Everything's not what you see/It's over again"

If you haven't seen the new movie Lincoln, you definitely should.  It is an absolute masterpiece, if I may say so.  I loved it.  I was just about the only young person in the theater - everyone else had gray hair.  I'm actually used to going to movies with a lot of old people because the movies I like happen to be the ones they're interested in as well.  Lincoln, The Young Victoria, The King's Speech - you know, I'm strange that way, but at least I'm learning new things, which is something I love to do.  People I know are like, "A science movie?  Who would want to see that?"  But I love watching "educational" movies.  Some people just don't understand.  I hope if you're reading this, you're one of those people who don't know many others who like what you do.

I also enjoy listening to the radio and watching ABC World News and interviews on YouTube.  It was through NPR that I heard Joe Queenan offer his opinions on libraries, bookstores, and book clubs.  I found it really funny.  He said something similar to: "Libraries are depressing because you know you can't read all the books" and "Book clubs.  They're just stupid."  Hilarious.

I have a really weird sense of humor, don't I?  My mom said I got it from her, since my dad is really tight about laughing at himself, but that's basically all I do, and everyone but my dad laughs at me (or, if not at me, about things I do and say).  Like the time I shut my finger in the window of my grandmother's car.  It was stupid, but I did it on purpose, actually.  I was seeing how closed the window could get before my finger couldn't fit anymore, and, believe me, I figured it out pretty quick once my finger got smushed.  I know "smushed" isn't a real word, but I'm going to use it anyway.

I say and do a lot of things without really thinking.  Once, when my family was driving through South Carolina, I asked, "Why are there so many South Carolina license plates?"  Huh.  I wonder why.  My brother insists that I need "professional help."  Pooh.  That's just crazy.  It's just my personality.  I can't fix it.  My personality gets on people's nerves a lot sometimes, like singing without really trying to hit all the notes, or singing in a chipmunk voice because I'm bored and can't find anything else to do.

Enough about me, sorry.  =)  (I'll try not to bore you.)

Running into walls
Throwing away laughter for tears
Sometimes that's all I think of.
It's not because I'm different
I take pride in what I do
I can use my voice to make people cry
But it's not something you would ever think to do,
Like running into walls.

--Emma Keynes


© 2012 Emma Keynes

"Keep calm and carry on..."

It's been a long while since I last posted, but my schoolwork has been so pressing that I've had no time.

Anyway, I thought I'd mention that right now I can barely talk because for the last hour, I sang

 There's a lovin' in your eyes all the way

If I listened to your lies would you say

I'm a man without conviction

I'm a man who doesn't know

How to sell a contradiction

You come and go, you come and go

Karma karma karma karma karma chameleon

You come and go, you come and go

Lovin' would be easy if your colors were like my dreams

Red gold and green, red gold and green

over and over and over and over and over again while tapping out the basic drum beat on my thighs for, literally, an hour...and at the top of my lungs.  I've realized that when I do that, when I try to talk normally, I find I'm really hoarse, but when I start singing again, I have no problems making it sound good.  Of course, my parents weren't too happy with hearing that part of the song repeated (my mother calls me a "broken record"), and tried to talk me out of it.  But I was too busy singing, and nothing but severe threat of punishment - like loss of all ways to listen to music - can make me quit doing what I love most, other than writing.  I stuck by "keep calm and carry on" and when I do that (I can be quite stubborn sometimes - I mean, a lot of the time) I hear nothing but my music.

I forgot to mention one particular comment that I received for Halloween: "Oh, hey, it's Boy George.  You look very feminine."  Don't think I didn't say "Thank you!"

Blood rains on desert winds
Washing away the tears
That fill the eyes of those who hold their heavy hearts
Inside their fears and dreams
And their memories
Sweet, hard to forget
Forever lost nor seen again
Re-lived inside our minds

-- Emma Keynes

© 2012 Emma Keynes

"I'll be back in time/Gotta get back in time"

So, a bit about my obsessive personality: I go through phases of artists that I listen to for months on end before moving on to another.  This has been a pattern ever since I was old enough to like something enough to hear it again.  It started with the radio--me, at about a year old, beating on my car seat, screaming at my mom to play a song again--but it "officially began" (according to my mom) with musicals, the first being "My Fair Lady."  Since then it has branched out to include not just musicals, but any type of music.  Michael Jackson, Diana Ross, Depeche Mode, The Police, "Pippin," Judy Garland, Paul Simon, Culture Club, Natalie Merchant, and Simon and Garfunkel are just a few.  (Just so you know, I count Paul Simon and Simon and Garfunkel as two different artists, or phases.)  My mother continues to say I sound like a broken record, and I think you can figure out what that means.

I hope I'm not the only one.  It just seems like it to me, since I don't know anyone else who's even slightly interested in what I am.  My parents aren't any better.  My mom said, "I don't know which is worse: listening to modern music or reliving the 80's."  Haha.  Funny.  I would have loved to have been born in the 50's or 60's so I could live all the music I love.

Oh well.  I guess I just have to be content with watching all the best artists die while the worst ones still live, and have decades left to.  I have the old music in my head so it won't disappear with them, and I'm sure many other people are doing the same--just NOT people my age, really, which is very unfortunate.

But, to my parents' credit, they were the ones who didn't listen to trashy music when I was little.  They listened to Alison Krauss, Johnny Cash, Simon and Garfunkel, The Beatles, Bob Dylan, and James Taylor.  I have to say, I can't stand Bob Dylan's voice, but some of his songs are pretty good.  It was also my seventh grade music teacher who introduced me to Depeche Mode, Michael Jackson, and Culture Club.  So I'll say thanks, even though my parents can't stand me singing the same songs over and over and over and over again.  :) 

So I'm trying to be more consistent about my posting, but it's obviously not working.  There are days when I just don't have the time, or can't get to a computer (or just don't feel like it), but I'm trying to make it all work out.

I sit around,
A black hat on my head,
Like a fedora,
Thinking.
What would it have been like?
What have I missed?
Sometimes I think I know,
Other times, it escapes me. 


--Emma Keynes

© 2012 Emma Keynes

"Upside down, Boy you turn me, inside out and round and round"

Well, that applies to other people more than me at Halloween :)  This Halloween, I dressed up as Boy George, and boy, did I get a reaction from the people in my town!  Everywhere I went, people were saying things like, "Let's have a little Culture Club," and "Oh, my God!  It's Boy George!  I love your costume!" and "I didn't think people knew about him anymore!" (this lady was almost screaming with delight) and "Let's hear you sing 'Karma Chameleon" and "Wow, Boy George.  I feel like I'm in a flashback to the 80's."

I loved it all, by the way.  I was totally ready to go along with what people were saying, and I got a lot of comments.  I loved being the one costume that everyone remembered.  This one woman had me wait outside her house while she went inside and called her husband to come take a look at me.  People were taking pictures and smiling and laughing a lot.  When this woman was jumping up and down in excitement and delight, I clapped my hands along with her and went "Whooo!"

As you can probably tell, I had a great time.  This was probably the best Halloween I've ever had.

Flesh-eaten corpses

Line the sidewalk

The day after Halloween

Half-eaten candies

Ghosts of costumes

Haunt the streets

The day after Halloween

Terrifying screams

Ring through the alleys

Scaring the birds to flight

The day after Halloween

Doors lock

People cry

The children fret at the windows

The day after Halloween

The sky turns black

The sun turns orange

The day after Halloween

--Emma Keynes

© 2012 Emma Keynes